...Bits&Pieces

I see that God keeps throwing me a lot of these “Go out there and live your life” signs…

Is it strange to say that I don’t know how.

It’s not that I’m saying I don’t know how to live,

but there are days and moments

when I feel like I’m alive but I’m not exactly “living”.

I’m not sad or depressed. I’m laughing, smiling and engaged everyday

but I feel like my life isn’t at its possible potential.

It’s no one’s fault but my own.

It’s just that my mind has been on one track.

I’m overly focused on the future

that I’m not embracing the present, which in turn influences my future.

As a friend of mine once told me “You’re to busy looking

at the forest and you’re missing the beauty of the trees”.

I’m not “grabbing life by the horns”.

I’m here…and I’m wondering when did I get this way.

I don’t know how to change.

Why do I keep holding myself back?